Been a while! And that's okay.

Wow. I looked up and it was February. 

I did an update on my now page about what I had been doing and January was a bit of a slow start if I was honest with myself. The jetlag and New Zealand coma were real! 

One thing I've been thinking about (and working on) since we got back is about what I'm doing this year, what I'm doing with the next chapter of my life and what's important, what isn't.

I took 6 months out of last year to do various projects, some of which I've written about, some of which didn't really go anywhere and I'm okay with that. I spent weeks attempting to build a Notion <> Chat GPT integration and despite it not paying off, I learned a lot. Similarly I spent 2 weeks participating in a GameJam that came to an end without a finished product.

But I learned that building games is hard. If it's something that I really wanted to do I'd need to put a lot more time into it and have a plan that will allow me to take that time. Or at the very least, know that it wasn't going to be done in weeks and be ok with that.

A lot of this is about learning. Reconciling the truth of things and taking the moment to not just accept, but thrive in that. To really relish in how great it is to have these opportunities, how lucky I am to be able to even go through this process.

It's like that moment when you stop and realise the world around you does still have some beauty left. Cliche I know.

I don't think really anyone reads this. And that's okay too. This is writing for myself as much as anything else, to consolidate my thoughts and reconcile them all together.

So what's my conclusion?

It's okay to take things slow. It's okay to choose not to do something. It's okay.

I am fortunate, lucky even to be able to take these opportunities. Not many people can and I worry about the future for myself and others. But in this very moment, it's okay.

I have a plan.